I don't know how to love (?)
"Loving someone is giving them the power to hurt you, but trusting them not to."
~ Anonymous.
Saw that quote on the latest CSI commercial.
It struck me.
Still reeling from the hit.
One month gone, 2 more to go.
Work has been a roller coaster of ups and downs.
So much to do sometimes and yet the other times, I am find myself trying to remember what to do... or what I am supposed to be doing.
Gwad.
What I like about work is that I don't have to bring it home with me.
All the stuff has to be completed within the 4 walls of the office intranet.
No bringing home of assignments.
Yes!
That directly means that I can just drop everything on the final bell and just head for the bus.
Pick up the list when I next enter the office and continue from there.
The serial list maker strikes.
Have to make sure the list is done, if not the boss and the big boss will come bearing down on little ol' me.
Of course, that means that the lists are super important... no telling what would happen if the lists went missing.
STM will be the end of me if that were to happen.
Colleagues are very nice.
Love my department.
My mentor is a gem - couldn't ask for a better person to be teaching me the ropes.
Boss is also a nice lady, but wouldn't wanna be taking her 'nice-ess' for granted. Can imagine how big of a bite she might take out of a person who gets on her 'wrong' side...
-shudders-
God gives me strength each day.
To live for Him and glorify His name.
Been singing God's praises with that one song.
Need to make sure I give praise where it is due.
Fell sick during the course of the last 2 weeks.
Had to see the doc twice.
Medication during office hours is not fun.
I wonder if we could consider the computer a piece of heavy machinery.
Plenty of damage can be done with that equipment yes?
Hopefully they won't extend the probation period.
-hysterical laughter-
Over the last few weeks:
Botanic Gardens with Daddy
Fainted at home
Celebrating Jared's 21st Birthday
Sick till have to be in bed for the entire day
Doc visit 2 times
2 visits to Japanese boss house
Taxi trips that cost more than 20 bucks each
Visiting a colleague's grandmother's funeral
Missed out on a month's worth of Cell group
Had dinner with Siya, Adeline and Sheena...
Yes, the A.S.S.S.
Back in action at AMK Hub last night.
Hwah... time sure flies...
More than 2 years since I last saw Adeline lor.
Now she works in a factory, like me.
Just that she gets to bring a loaf of bread home every day.
For real a not ah Adeline?
We laughed, shrieked and laughed some more about the JC days.
Siya was saying that she is surprised how much I remember from those times.
I can't say how I've been able to do that, must be because those were the best days of my teenage life... ahaha
Looking forward to the mahjong session... have to plan nice nice sweet sweet.
-more hysterical laughter-
Shall upload my measly one photo later~
Marilyn is back from overseas!!!
She was tired but still made time to meet me at AMK hub - yes, on the same night as the A.S.S.S.
Introduced her to Adeline and Siya. (Sheena went off to watch movie with her boyfriend)
Walked around the place. I personally do not think that it's that big anymore... walk and walk but still end up in the same place after ten minutes.
Said goodbye to Adeline and Siya after the Coffeebean drinks and walked all the way to Serangoon North with Marilyn.
No money fun!
I am all for it.
Just that my feet protested after the walking.
Shoes have been rebelling against me since they were brought home 3 weeks ago.
Blisters, but fun.
Good exercise as well.
Haven been able to get enough exercise and time with friends these days, so last night made up for what has been lacking.
Reached home around 11.30pm.
Watched House MD - my new fav show!
Whose line is it anyway and some other show... can't remember what...
Knocked out around 2am.
Woke up around 9am.
Stayed in bed for the better part of the day.
Must make sure energy has been replenished.
Not everyweek that there is no tuition class... actually, I won't have another day like this for the next 3 months... oppz...
So ya, sleeping is a very good form of relaxation.
Reading too, which was done when I was not dozing.
hehe...
The hit is still bugging me...
Do I really not know how to love?
Since when was I not able to love?
Does that mean that if I am unable to tell someone about my feelings for them, I don't love them enough? Or I don't even love them at all - when I think I do, but in fact I might not?
I don't say how I feel because I'm too petrified of being hurt by the possibility of rejection, but is that the point of being able to love in the first place?
-hits head against the wall-
Gee... when did I start to doubt my ability to love?
-pulls self back from the zone and is reminded about the movie on tv-
OK, I shall go watch my movie now.. Keanu Reeves always was able to make me feel better...
And now that George Clooney does not have a girlfriend, maybe I have a chance?
-migumi laughter-
Yes, Praise to Him alone.
Sunday is tomorrow...
God give us strength to live for You
And glorify Your name.
^-^
~ Anonymous.
Saw that quote on the latest CSI commercial.
It struck me.
Still reeling from the hit.
One month gone, 2 more to go.
Work has been a roller coaster of ups and downs.
So much to do sometimes and yet the other times, I am find myself trying to remember what to do... or what I am supposed to be doing.
Gwad.
What I like about work is that I don't have to bring it home with me.
All the stuff has to be completed within the 4 walls of the office intranet.
No bringing home of assignments.
Yes!
That directly means that I can just drop everything on the final bell and just head for the bus.
Pick up the list when I next enter the office and continue from there.
The serial list maker strikes.
Have to make sure the list is done, if not the boss and the big boss will come bearing down on little ol' me.
Of course, that means that the lists are super important... no telling what would happen if the lists went missing.
STM will be the end of me if that were to happen.
Colleagues are very nice.
Love my department.
My mentor is a gem - couldn't ask for a better person to be teaching me the ropes.
Boss is also a nice lady, but wouldn't wanna be taking her 'nice-ess' for granted. Can imagine how big of a bite she might take out of a person who gets on her 'wrong' side...
-shudders-
God gives me strength each day.
To live for Him and glorify His name.
Been singing God's praises with that one song.
Need to make sure I give praise where it is due.
Fell sick during the course of the last 2 weeks.
Had to see the doc twice.
Medication during office hours is not fun.
I wonder if we could consider the computer a piece of heavy machinery.
Plenty of damage can be done with that equipment yes?
Hopefully they won't extend the probation period.
-hysterical laughter-
Over the last few weeks:
Botanic Gardens with Daddy
Fainted at home
Celebrating Jared's 21st Birthday
Sick till have to be in bed for the entire day
Doc visit 2 times
2 visits to Japanese boss house
Taxi trips that cost more than 20 bucks each
Visiting a colleague's grandmother's funeral
Missed out on a month's worth of Cell group
Had dinner with Siya, Adeline and Sheena...
Yes, the A.S.S.S.
Back in action at AMK Hub last night.
Hwah... time sure flies...
More than 2 years since I last saw Adeline lor.
Now she works in a factory, like me.
Just that she gets to bring a loaf of bread home every day.
For real a not ah Adeline?
We laughed, shrieked and laughed some more about the JC days.
Siya was saying that she is surprised how much I remember from those times.
I can't say how I've been able to do that, must be because those were the best days of my teenage life... ahaha
Looking forward to the mahjong session... have to plan nice nice sweet sweet.
-more hysterical laughter-
Shall upload my measly one photo later~
Marilyn is back from overseas!!!
She was tired but still made time to meet me at AMK hub - yes, on the same night as the A.S.S.S.
Introduced her to Adeline and Siya. (Sheena went off to watch movie with her boyfriend)
Walked around the place. I personally do not think that it's that big anymore... walk and walk but still end up in the same place after ten minutes.
Said goodbye to Adeline and Siya after the Coffeebean drinks and walked all the way to Serangoon North with Marilyn.
No money fun!
I am all for it.
Just that my feet protested after the walking.
Shoes have been rebelling against me since they were brought home 3 weeks ago.
Blisters, but fun.
Good exercise as well.
Haven been able to get enough exercise and time with friends these days, so last night made up for what has been lacking.
Reached home around 11.30pm.
Watched House MD - my new fav show!
Whose line is it anyway and some other show... can't remember what...
Knocked out around 2am.
Woke up around 9am.
Stayed in bed for the better part of the day.
Must make sure energy has been replenished.
Not everyweek that there is no tuition class... actually, I won't have another day like this for the next 3 months... oppz...
So ya, sleeping is a very good form of relaxation.
Reading too, which was done when I was not dozing.
hehe...
The hit is still bugging me...
Do I really not know how to love?
Since when was I not able to love?
Does that mean that if I am unable to tell someone about my feelings for them, I don't love them enough? Or I don't even love them at all - when I think I do, but in fact I might not?
I don't say how I feel because I'm too petrified of being hurt by the possibility of rejection, but is that the point of being able to love in the first place?
-hits head against the wall-
Gee... when did I start to doubt my ability to love?
-pulls self back from the zone and is reminded about the movie on tv-
OK, I shall go watch my movie now.. Keanu Reeves always was able to make me feel better...
And now that George Clooney does not have a girlfriend, maybe I have a chance?
-migumi laughter-
Yes, Praise to Him alone.
Sunday is tomorrow...
God give us strength to live for You
And glorify Your name.
^-^